year of 2012

today is the last day of 2012
in just one year i lost a lot,
i lost 2 people that i always care
i lost the one that i love
i lost the trust of my friends and companion
i cry a lot on the year of 2012
if can i don want to remember everything
if can i don want to go through everything
2012 is a year i shed too much tear
i hope on the year of 2013 will be much better

remind of you

is almost been 2nd week
i still remember you..
the  memory together with you is hard to vanish in the thin air
the happy, angry and sad moment with you is very cherish in me
all those memory bring a lot of knowledge, understanding in love
u are the second person that i really fell in love with..
even though i already been date a lot of times
the first love is when i was in secondary school and it took me 5 years to forget about him
how long will u last in mine mind?
i still counting the days..
the  memory  of you make me remind of you
even i dream of you holding my hand
i know this will took sometimes and i know it will be longer than my 1st love
cause u are the deepest love i ever felt
but i know even i thinking of u at here...
u won think of me over there
i know that a lost of someone mean so much in you
but i know losing me is not much effect on you
cause u are the type of person will stand up back just in one day
i really hope that i can be like you
forget everything just in one day

ur reply

today i have receive ur message from u~
u juz say as u wish~
and i know wat u really mean~
thank you for stay by my side for a long time
thank you for help me stand up back
thsnk you for always care about me
thank you for being the best person for me
thank you for everything~
i do really love u but i do really know that u won be mine
i do really like u but i know we not meant for each other
i cry when i see ur reply, i worry wat u are thinking
but i too selfish to let u face something like this
i am sorry
i hope u all the best
u will sure meet someone will always care about u
and i believe u will be very happy with u life
i really hope that person will be me
in reality it won be me~
thank you~

12.12.12.~ is a foolish act on the beautiful day

yesterday on 12.12.12~
is a beautiful day when i wake up...
i look outside of my window at 8.30am in the morning
i can still see the cloud covering the earth
at the 9.30am i walk to class still can see the cloud covering the beautiful earth
i was thinking, is this a sign tell me that is not the same as always?
i thinking every each hours and i have come out an conclusion
that i going to send u a break up letter for u~
so yesterday night i took a long time to write and read it again
ensure the letter is not hurt u a lot
i know u have break up with ur GF
but still i think and i can feel that u won be mine even i waiting
this is why the letter come along~
i half writing the letter half thinking is this the best solution for both of us?
should i face to face meet u and have a talk about this?
but i know that if i meet u face to face
maybe i have a hard time to say it out... and even i maybe will cry
this date only come once in a life time...
and there won be a beautiful date like this
but i am sorry at i choose this date...
only this date i have a courage to tell u everything..
i am sorry that i hold in for so long
until i cannot breath
i don know when u will saw this letter
it making me nervous  for waiting for ur respond
please faster read the letter and respond to me
don let me wait for a long time
arigato~